Flower is – along ’The First Blood of War’ – the oldest song on this album. I wrote the first version of it around the turn of the millennium but this newer version saw daylight in 2011. The song is about desire and if a certain thing is really worth pursuing, no matter how badly you want it. The inspiration for the song came from quite a surprising direction, as is very often the case with me. I heard a person I know had gone to work in the adult entertainment industry. I was confused and a little bit shocked but at the same time I was eager to know what the reasons behind her decision were. Was this exactly what she wanted from her life, or would life have something else to offer her? In retrospect, I can say that was just one stage in her life.
In the first version of ‘Flower’, the atmosphere was quite cold and distant. I imagined myself as a fly on the wall, but at the same time I was ashamed of my interest in this subject, so I distanced the narrator’s voice from it. For this newer version, I decided to change the lyrics and the atmosphere warmer and more intimate. I felt that if a person makes decisions of their own will, I can’t be cold and resentful. Instead I have to get inside into the person’s world of thought and approach the subject through it. I often try to add more than one layer to my lyrics. Thus, Flower also works on a more general level. Everyone is probably wondering at some point in their lives if at that very moment they have everything they want in their lives, or if life could offer something more after all – something else worth pursuing. Not necessarily, but you never know what to expect around the corner. But what I do know is that every decision or act you make or do leaves its mark on you and shapes you in a certain way.
Fragile Dream – Hewey